As you continue to diminish, finish your work with glossy varnish to protect against the ravages of too much sun. Safeguard the subtle shadings and hoard the necessary joys of passing on.
The river gives you walking sticks and songs. The land has offered sustenance and stones. But reality lands hard on brittle bones.
It’s all too beautiful, the sunsets and train wrecks, the intentional offspring, the adopted ducks, the bad ideas, the sheep and goats, the bombs and tender mercies, the labyrinths and weeds. It’s all too beautiful to leave behind.
And Yet.
Graceful decreasing makes room for increasing. The Baptist knew you can only wash a few before your hands grow too cold to be trusted. Step down, aside, and forward. The Greater Whole is waiting by the fire.
Come warm yourself. The guests are gathering to honor all the good you’ve tried to do.
Offer your acceptance speech in lavender while the evening light plays havoc with defiant greens and blues. In scenes yet to be enacted, you may not recall your lines so pin them here and there in red behind the sofa or underneath the lamp.
Thanks, Carey. Sometimes, I think sadness is the most honest “real.” And yes, I did the paintings, though the first one I found at the dump and added a lot to the original, so I claim it as mine but someone else started it and threw it away…
Hey Kaye, I’d love for you to include these words any time and anywhere. Planning one’s eulogy is a great way to welcome the days we are still around! Love, Rita
How did you know I have notes all over the house? Big concepts flow through hour after hour, but tomorrow’s dentist appointment could slip away in a sneeze! I like to think yes, I am diminishing in my effect on the community, in my body, in my energy level; but I am also enlarging my capacity for silence, for appreciation and for loving so many more sentient beings (e.g. calico cat, pansies, random dogs, etc.). Loving your offerings, Star
Beautiful, Rita!
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Thanks, Daniel. It broke my heart all week working on it…
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Really beautiful! Sad but real.
Did you also do the paintings? I love both of them.
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Thanks, Carey. Sometimes, I think sadness is the most honest “real.” And yes, I did the paintings, though the first one I found at the dump and added a lot to the original, so I claim it as mine but someone else started it and threw it away…
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What an amazing poem, Rita So full of life’s beautiful contradictions. And then the paintings! The ranch must also be a place of creative inspiration.
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Thanks, Gary. And yes, the river and the ranch and the garden (and the bugs and weeds and nightly news)…all too much inspiration to handle :).
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So complete, one end to the other. I am bowing down.
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As am I. Such a good, rounding thing to do with the body :). …Thanks…
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Rita. At 82 years of young, you just described my life on the river.
Thank you. I will include it in my eulogy when the time comes, that is, if I have your permission.
kaye – the inner tubing river rat
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Hey Kaye, I’d love for you to include these words any time and anywhere. Planning one’s eulogy is a great way to welcome the days we are still around! Love, Rita
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mellowing, my girl, definitely mellowing. xoxoxo
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Like good wine and dark beer…?? Thanks, Nancy. Hope you are mellowing (just a little), too. xoxo
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Wow
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And wow back to you :).
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How did you know I have notes all over the house? Big concepts flow through hour after hour, but tomorrow’s dentist appointment could slip away in a sneeze! I like to think yes, I am diminishing in my effect on the community, in my body, in my energy level; but I am also enlarging my capacity for silence, for appreciation and for loving so many more sentient beings (e.g. calico cat, pansies, random dogs, etc.). Loving your offerings, Star
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Thanks, Star. It is indeed a series of shifts in perspective. The adventure continues, via sticky notes and big ideas 🙂
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