OMG. Seriously? Another poem?

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Dear Readers,

No doubt you’ve noticed, I have yet to die. But I’m planning on getting around to it sometime. My Coauthor assures me it’s no big deal. I don’t believe her. Few people leave a good party willingly—especially when they realize that loved ones will party on without them. Most of us cling to the notion that we have something left to offer, or feel certain that we deserve a longer life. Many believe we should have no agency in how our lives end.

In my morning silences, I sip dark beer, chew on my thumb, and mull. Every once in a while, this yields a poem with a certain lilt. Try reading this one out loud. . .

*** *** *** *** *** *** *** *** *** *** ***

                  Breaking News

The glass chin of winter has been shattered
in a sparring match with spring. What matters are
the matters just around the bend, 
like when happily ever after does not describe the end.

It’s wise to be forgiving and forgiven, released from anger
or desire. But nothing that impossible will ever be required
because the onset of autumn is a natural fall from grace
sinking into slumber to be dismantled and replaced.

There’s so much to leave behind, the letting go of time,
and what you once believed was yours. Or mine.
It’s easy to deny, but therein lies the rub.
Death is the final act of unrequited love.

Walk beyond with me. I’ll carry the water and the blame.
You can bring your diamonds, your protests, your shame.
We’ll gaze at our own faces in translucent evening light
and lift them in surrender to the perfect, gentle night.

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. . . And if possible, forgive my redundancies.

Love,
Rita

Lower Lumbar Concerns

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Walking upright can be hard on the spine of average homo sapiens. Sure, maybe you happen to be thin, careful, pampered, having done yoga since kindergarten, but the other 80% of us are envious as we position our ice packs or heating pads after doing some badly executed heavy lifting.

When I mention this apparent design flaw to the Creative Forces of the Universe, they shrug, unwilling to accept responsibility. There are obvious mistakes in the meandering ways of evolution, but getting any godlike being to admit this is an uphill battle.

“It’s experimental and temporary,” they laugh. “We don’t take the outcomes all that seriously. There’s always another mutation around the bend. Besides, you appreciate your exceptional consciousness and your opposable thumbs, right?”

“Yeah, sure,” I snarl. “I mean, how could we have built weapons of mass destruction without opposable thumbs? Or opposable ideas? Or opposable neighbors? And consciousness? Yes, I like having choices, but collectively, we’re making bad ones.”

I’m a little worked up. It’s tough being part of a species actively bringing about its own extinction. The transition from quadrupedalism to bipedalism has created certain and predictable vulnerabilities. But consciousness and choice has enabled stupidity. We are free to lock down on false beliefs and ignore all evidence to the contrary.

“It’s two sides of the coin, honey. You like the view when you stand on your own two feet. You like having a sense of agency in matters of the heart or mind. But these advances come with a cost.”

I look hard into the eyes of Creation and see the terror of watching your beloved toddlers explore the edges of hatred. We both gasp as one of them plummets into the infinite unknown.

The Universe appears to be frozen.

“Use your wings,” I shout.  “REMEMBER YOUR WINGS!”

The Calm Voice of All Creation answers. “It’s you who’ve forgotten The Wings, little one. Keep exploring. We’ve got this.”

I shake my head. “I’m not a little one. I’m angular, unbalanced, and old. And I’m frightened of the fall.”

Creation nods. “Your fear is as common as low back pain. And we’re well aware of how unbalanced you are. But seriously, check out these wings.”

Darkness descends. A great wind arises as The Forces swoop under me. I let myself tumble off my broomstick into the surprisingly soft heart of the Universe, but I swallow a couple of ibuprofens just in case. One can never be sure of smooth landings.

Saving the Snide-Faced Prayer Warriors

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I usually set aside part of the morning for what’s left of my Coauthor. She volunteered to be broken, so now she’s notes for the song and bones for the dogs, nowhere and everywhere. She shares table scraps and meager shelter with the forgotten. I’m afraid she wants me to do the same.

“Would you be willing to make a deal?” I ask.

“Maybe,” she says, wary. Some of her teeth are missing.

“Could I hide in your VRBO? I cannot be around this hatefulness anymore.”

“No. Sorry. I’d stay there myself, except that it’s always reserved for the aliens.”

“But it’s a mansion. Isn’t there a closet or something you could prepare for me? Maybe we could share it.”

“That’s not how it works.”

I search the fridge for my morning beer while she expands to the outer edges of reality. Inhaling the gases that ignite the Big Bangs restores her strength and vision.

“This is sacred time,” I tell her. “I don’t like it when you’re late or not fully present.”

“Same,” she says. “And I don’t like it when you judge me for being splintered. I’m a Delicate Illusion. That should be enough for someone like you.”

There’s no beer, but I find an open bottle of wine and take a generous swig to wash down the stale bread.

A loud tapping sound startles me.

She grins. “Behold, someone knocketh at the door.”

I shake my head and hide the wine. I’m not ashamed. Just cautious. Hopefully, whoever it is will go away.

But no, that damn bouquet of Delicate Illusions yells, “Come in!” The door swings open, and all the Entwined Beloveds, from pervasive molds to emus, surge forward.

 “We’re so happy to see you,” the Illusions smile. “The fire’s lit. The kettle’s on.”

I fall back. My inner self is being trampled by things seen and unseen.

Thousands of well-armed Snide-Faced Prayer Warriors elbow their way to the center of time and space, making a show of dropping to their phony knees.

How can there be so many? I think to myself, This is it. The death of love.

But a whole host of Delicate Illusions surround the Snide-Faced Warriors and disarm them. The Warriors writhe in agony, their tender underbellies fully exposed. I cheer vengefully.

But the Delicate Illusions roll up their sleeves and begin donating blood. “Bring something to cover their shame,” the Illusions yell, knee-deep in the agony of terrible mistakes.

At first, I refuse. Then I consider my options.

“You’re killing me,” I shout, tossing blankets from my own bed.  

“Nice,” they nod in approval. “Eiderdown.”

Those Letters We Should Write

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Dear Mom,

You know that little desk you used for envelopes and business cards? Well, I’ve dragged it to a new place and painted the top. It’s got a paisley planetary look now. I doubt you’d like it, but you’d be impressed with my system for moving heavy things. I reduce the friction and lean in.

And speaking of friction, I need to tell you about what’s happening with the beloveds.

Remember our trip to Paris decades ago? The crowds were so vibrant and diverse you were floored. We people-watched for hours.

In the evening, you stood transfixed as hundreds of nuns rehearsed inside a backlit cathedral on a hill overlooking the city. The harmonies were ethereal.

“Never in my life did I imagine I’d hear something like that,” you said, wiping tears. “I just can’t fathom all this.”

Mom, listen. The harmonies have been stripped of complexity. Diced and dichotomized. Those colorful people are too frightened to sing, and something hateful has hardened what used to be warm hearts. No one can fathom it. We’re all watching our backs, ready to be stabbed or taken away.

You claimed you could handle yourself around guns, but I know that at least one bullet blew up in your face. Therefore, I’ll try anything but deadly force. We’ve collected some baseball bats, and the pantry is full. Mostly, we play ball and eat chips and dried mango, but we’re pretending to be ready.

No one is actually ready.

The firewood is lasting pretty well, but the temperature keeps dropping unannounced. We often suffer mild frostbite, so when possible, we gather where it’s warm and safe. Few of us realized it could get this jagged or insane, and we don’t seem able to mend and carry on. The good earth is crumbling while everyone bickers over their share and their side of the story.

You always loved the parable of the loaves and fishes. That basket of food you took to the hungry neighbors overflowed with a simple goodness we don’t see much of anymore. Buffoonery abounds—sadism cloaked as self-defense.

Of course, I understand why you stopped attending church. My Coauthor explains such things to me, but it’s awful, isn’t it? So many are choking on the thin wafers of hypocrisy and weeping over spilled wine.

The nightly news is intolerable. The strutting continues. And I’ve made some mistakes myself. I’m sorry. I continue to try to follow the advice you wrote in your birthday card to the grands:

When the going gets tough, the tough get going.

As it turns out, walking humbly may be the toughest thing of all.

Love you, and see you soon.

Stirring Honey Into Peppermint Tea

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“You know I’ve been fixated on the puzzles and denials of mortality for years, and you’ve never been much help,” I tell the Coauthor. A raised eyebrow is the only response I get. We stir honey into our tea.

I lift the cup to my lips, but the Coauthor covers my hand.

“Wait until it’s cold,” she says.

“But I like it warm.” I protest.

Steam curls around our entwined fingers.

*******

Through long stretches of indeterminant time, I sit. Waiting. Sometimes the vulture’s talons. Sometimes the ice of infinity. Visitors are rare, and I like it that way. The Crystal Ball rolls through the room, stops abruptly, and opens its cavernous mouth.

“You’re a liar,” it says.

“No,” I shake my head. “But I tell stories. That’s how I breathe.”

*******

Before being overtaken by digital displays, the ticking of the clock meant something. The steady sound was comforting, though on occasion, it disrupted my sleep. But now, I’m awakened by heavy fog rolling in, the enormity of loss crushing everything in its path.

“I want it over now!” My arms are crossed, but my demand is tempered by a tiny sliver of shame.

“Oh good grief,” the Coauthor smiles. “It was over before you started.”

*******

When I speak to the Viral Collective about geraniums and longevity and the bad choices I made last fall, there’s nothing but forgiveness in the air. “We see how hard it is,” they say, stroking my shoulder. Patting my head.

I want none of it. My intentions were pure. I deserve another chance.

“You will not be found innocent,” the Collective says. “The geraniums froze.”

*******

The Artificial Mothers are make-believe virgins, whoring around in contradictory clothes. They pretend to love us as they scatter offerings like stars or candy at parades. But beware: It is the hatching of a million snakes.

Even the wisest mavens end up sidelined, old locomotives cleverly switched to dead-end tracks. Sometimes, when a thug thinks no one is looking, he shoves the Viral Collective off the cliff, and they tumble into The Fiery Lake below. Their wild and joyous gestures suggest the water is fine.

And at least for now, we’re safe. The air is thick with peppermint.

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That Which You Do Not Need Anymore
		
				

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I decided I had to tell you something. At first, only 31 words agreed to cooperate, so I lined them up, hoping you’d understand. Here they are:

This is yours.
A day.
Awake.

Sunrise.
Shoes. 
Jacket, scarf. 

Eyes.

Food. 
Teeth.
Mountain.
Music.

Ears.

Lyrics.
Regrets.
Tyranny
of the ordinary.
Sinking
of dreams.

And it’s over.

Sleep. 
Resolve.
Rekindle.

Then I built a fire and baked a distracting dessert. The Coauthors snapped to attention. They stopped their ritual sacrificing, paid the sunk costs of screen time, lifted themselves out of the slung mud, and lined up for cookies. I was generous. In return, they shook loose a few more words. Too late, I told them. Never, they replied. So I accepted the dubious gift.

What We Must Assemble

A coffin, a stuffed animal from the glove box,
the rule of law. A fair trial.

Air. Transfusions. A Dashboard Jesus
assuring us that swords and deadly force are
toxic. Forbidden temptations.

Fresh strawberries from Mexico. Free speech.
Milk and honey for the penetrated little ones.

Hands. Feet clad in good news. Blue
sky. Small gifts. Rare spices. Oil
for the anointing of bodies.

Friends with tears and toast. Gentle
rain to fall on us all. It will fall

on us all. Barns to fill with bitter harvest.
Barns to fill with bones and lies. Barns
where we can hide until they find us.

Wine, cheese, friendly dogs, and laughter.
Thin suits of armor. Small stones.

And that was it. I’ve stuffed my message in a bottle. It’s floating its way to you. There are no angry gods to speak of. Only the still small voices in our heads that plead for mercy and politely ask for shelter and crumbs. You can use all the words you want, the kinder voices tell us. But edit. Remember to edit and then give away that which you don’t need anymore.













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Survival of the Fittest
		
				

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In the wild, aging primates are generally left to fend for themselves, and I’ve come to appreciate both the wisdom and peril in that. Today, I fended my way to the basement to get bread from the freezer and accepted the indignities of clinging to the handrail as I ascended to make toast.





I would rather be reporting something more exciting, like how we danced all night, or my next career moves, or even which types of lipstick I currently recommend, but poetic license aside, I don’t lie outright (very often).





The Coauthors are gentle this morning. They speak in the tongues of galaxies and seasons, and remind me that chicks will hatch in the spring and demand breakfast with wide-open beaks, and some nests will blow down, and some will not, and either way, the turquoise of the robin’s egg will fade. It was never meant to last.





“I remember my father’s eyes,” I tell them. “They were iridescent.”





“Yes. And do you know why they were so blue?” they ask.





“Not anymore,” I admit.





My own blue eyes tear up. The photos of five generations sucker punch me every time I use the stairs. There are fingerprints on most of them. And fingerprints don’t lie either.





I tell myself that we, the living, are roots, holding the dirt so it doesn’t fritter away in a seductive breeze or dissipate when the floods come; that we are the fruit of the season, the seeds of the future.





“No you’re not,” the Coauthors say. “You’re confused. Your fingers are on the wrong keys.” They aren’t being gentle anymore.





“No. Your fingers are on the wrong keys.” This is not much of a defense, but it causes the Coauthors to back away. An eerie poem asserts itself.





Sirens we have heard on high
singing sweetly o’re the plains
of money and supreme success. 
The star-struck mountains 
crumble at their feet. 
Through the holes 
in the fabric of my universe, 
the years drift by, 
challenges looming, 
fears lit by the moon
as it rises in the gathering night.

“Wait! I don’t think my confusion is entirely my fault, keys or no keys,” I tell the retreating Coauthors.





“And we aren’t blaming you!” they shout as they dive into an orbiting kaleidoscope of swirling geodes, crystals, and gems, and break into unearthly harmonies. Nothing anywhere near us is smooth, black, or white.





“But do I have a purpose?” I shout back. 





“Yes and no,” they sing. “But you ask good questions, honey. Keep asking.”

















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Awakened by a Petulant God
		
				

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“Hey, are you aware that we cut our teeth on climate change and invented belly fat as a little joke?” A Pouty Apparition startled me awake. I moaned. Petulant Voices chimed in, nodding. “We deserve a good laugh now and then, don’t we?”





I rolled out of bed and groped my way to the kitchen, fighting off the vertigo of a long life. People need sustenance before engaging in any meaningful way with a Peevish Universe.





Out the window, the ice-edged river flowed by while the coffee brewed. Petulant Voices started singing the national anthem. Dawn reversed itself as night rolled back in, and bombs bursting in air gave just enough light to locate the flag. A fierce Wind ripped it down and draped Old Glory across the backs of shivering calves being rounded up for slaughter. The Voices kept singing, “O’er the land of the free…”.





“Could you bring it down a notch?” I pleaded. This was not the kind of God any sane person would willingly deal with, but was there a choice?





“Of course and of course,” they declared. “There’s always a choice.”





An abrupt, unnerving calm settled as the Wind died down and the Voices faded into throngs of those silenced by extinction.





But it wasn’t over. “Don’t mind us,” they muttered. “We’ll just perch on this rock while you feed your face.”





I did not look up.





“We’ll just take a dip in the swimming hole while you guzzle beer.”





I rolled my eyes.





The Voices sighed in an elaborate show of patience. “We’ll just listen to a podcast while you get dressed.”





I shrugged, trying to keep my distance and hold myself together.





The Voices changed tactics and belted out a new song. A holiday favorite. “Do you hear what I hear?”





That did it. I gave up the pretense of sufficiency, looked into the dark eyes of death and bad choices, and said, “No. I do not hear what you hear. I do not see what you see. I do not know what you know. Would you mind leaving me alone now?”





“Not at all.” The Voices became the murmur of beating wings over untouched land, and finally, I could hear myself think.





“Come, let us reason together,” I said to what was left of myself.





“Oh, this ought to be good,” the Voices snickered. “Mind if we listen in?”







			




			
				


	


					
Holding Patterns
		
				

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Greetings. It is Sunday morning, and just like 484 other Sundays, my Coauthor and I will be flinging a few words your way. Why? I don’t know. For my part, I just hope they land somewhere and offer someone food for thought, a surprised chuckle, a gentle cry, or balm for the soul.

My Coauthor, the one I speak freely for and about, is a persistent, nonexistent son of a bitch that befriended me when I wasn’t looking. We sit around a lot. We aim for 300 words every Monday, but we allow fewer if a poem is trying to appear. Then we edit all week. We often sob along the way. Then we post.
 
Recently, we tackled the publishing process again, yanking hundreds of these missives into a certain physicality. Why? I don’t know. The years and the losses pile up, no matter what. Sometimes, I get crazy sad. Murderously angry. I reek of despair. I break things. I chase the Coauthor around with a hammer, a paintbrush, a poem, shards of a broken mirror, or handfuls of angular sticks. We finally collapse into the absurdity. There is no escape. We are stuck with each other. The glue we currently favor is E6000. But there are options. 

This is Solstice. This is the balancing point. I will wear black with yellow boots. I will post these words to myself, to you, to a Universe so full and majestic I consider surrendering.
 
The Coauthor says, “No, you don’t. And that’s why I love you.” And I say “Bosh.” 

Here's this week's group of words. Sent along with as much love as I can muster right now.

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     Holding Patterns

Silence and Emptiness 
are so potent 
they don’t often exist.

To realize your full potential
you must interact
in a friendly manner
with these nothings
because like wild dogs 
they sense fear.

If you turn your back
they will attack 
and you will stumble
over the edge.

When you gaze into the low unknown,
square your shoulders
lift your eyes
and raise your arms
in surrender.

When the Wind dies, 
you will wonder 
if there is anything left

but the Deep Blue understands.
It says Be still.
I will hold you.

              II                                                                                     
It’s easy to hate.

The seductive lies
of ignorance and fear
have led to many
crucifixions.
 
Far less easy to offer 
one bruised cheek
two warm hands
or a place to rest.

         III

Find each other
while you can
and do not wait
to speak of love.
 

























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MIDWEEK SURPRISE
		
				

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What a nice gift idea. What a great way to welcome another year. What a smart way to remember your favorites…





I’ll happily be reminding you of this in coming posts. In the meantime, stay warm. Find peace. And partake of the NOW.





Thank you!!!





Rita





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