In many ways God and I have very little in common. The narrow gateway of our commonality is not the DNA I share with other humans, fruit flies, bananas, trees, or goats; not my uncertainties or my short journey in this limited body. And absolutely not my tendency to bite my thumb when I sense God is close. God doesn’t have thumbs. But sometimes, she borrows one and bites it while I write, just to demonstrate her solidarity. It’s a transparent solidarity. I slip my hand through and watch the world turn to fire. I am intrigued by the godness of fire as mass gives way to energy.
Often the godness around me is so dense I can hardly breathe. Billions of people seething and searching for the right ways to live their lives, afraid of all the wrong things. Even the stars are born and die, so what do we have to fear? One form godness takes is joy, a flower with roots that run deep in dark places. Another form of godness is suffering, and it will be with us until the end.
“Yes,” God says, affirming my pondering. “Maybe not DNA, but joy and suffering. Yes, these we have in common.”
“God,” I say. “I don’t always love it when you show up and agree with me.” I turn my gaze inward, where of course, I find God smiling between the strands that define who I think I am. I slide my consciousness back out, trying to think of other things. Deadlines. Vitamins. Bad travel conditions. Entropy. Anything but You-Know-Who.
“Okay,” God says. “Let’s play hide-and-seek. Shall I find you, or do you want to find me?”
“What does it matter?” I say. “It’s one and the same.”
God pretends to ring a bell. “Ding, ding, ding,” she says. “Folks, we have a winner.”
I can’t help but laugh. What a chump. I shrug. “Fine. So you’re here. What’ll it be today? Compassion? Sacrifice? Slippage? The mundane grip of reality? Painting sticks? Rearranging my rock collection? Maybe a small skirmish with the dark forces of hell and selfishness?”
God mimics my shrug. Then she leans over, examines my thumb, and kisses the bite marks away.
“All better,” she says, her voice tender and soothing. I stare at my thumb.
“Maybe,” I say, tears welling up. “But I don’t see the point. You know I’ll bite it again.”
“Exactly,” God says. “Exactly. Maybe that’s why I love you so much.”
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I love your weekly blog. They are good for me.
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Thanks Rob. I think they are good for me too, but sometimes, I wonder.
Beautiful—as you are… S
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…and you. We share a lot of DNA 🙂