God and I are listening to Bonnie Raitt on Youtube. “I can’t make you love me if you don’t,” she croons, her voice resigned, gentle. The lyrics were inspired by an article about a man who’d shot up his girlfriend’s car. During sentencing, the judge asked the offender if he’d learned anything. He replied, “Yes, I did, Your Honor. You can’t make a woman love you if she don’t.”
“Well, that’s true,” God says. “But don’t extrapolate. She’s singing about eros–an attraction that’s sensuous, artistic, and spontaneous.” God gave me a chummy wink. “It may not have been that wise, but I put eros slightly out of your direct control. And I’ll admit, I get a kick out of watching eros make fools of you all occasionally.”
My mind drifts to some of my youthful escapades that may or may not have been fueled by eros. I keep silent. God laughs.
“I hid it in the genes; biology and all that,” God says, but quickly adds, “I also gave you a modicum of willpower and common sense. You can channel eros in some very nice ways.” God smiles. “It’s a source of energy.”
“Yeah,” I say. My mind drifts to the notion of loving my enemies; definitely not a source of energy.
“Ah,” God says. “Let me clear that up for you. It’s a problem with language. I never command eros. It’s there or it isn’t. My first–and actually only–commandment is this: Have compassion. Choose self-sacrifice. Act for the common good. I don’t just hope you love each other in this sense of love. It’s a full-on mandate.” God pushes back in the recliner, watching me squirm.
“Penny for your thoughts,” she says. And I say, “You already know what I’m thinking, But fine, I’ll say it. I’m thinking about mandates. I don’t like seatbelts. They make me itch and feel claustrophobic. There are mandates I hate.”
“Yup,” God says. “I know that.”
“But on the other hand, I detest second-hand smoke, and drunk drivers terrify me.”
“I know that, too.”
The song continues. “Morning will come, and I’ll do what’s right. Just give me ‘til then to give up this fight.” The longing in her voice, the beautiful, ultimately loving surrender always chokes me up. Such a heart-wrenching choice.
“Now, about those seatbelts,” God says. “You realize that in a crash, your untethered body becomes a bludgeon, right? It’s a mandate for the common good, not your comfort.”
“Yes, Ma’am,” I say. “That’s why I wear the damn things.”
But sometimes, I finish my half-beer in the car when I’m not driving. I haven’t shot up any vehicles, but I admit I still have some work to do.
“Oh, most of you have quite a bit of work to do,” God says. “And not to rush you, but like the song says, morning will come.”