Awakened by a Petulant God

“Hey, are you aware that we cut our teeth on climate change and invented belly fat as a little joke?” A Pouty Apparition startled me awake. I moaned. Petulant Voices chimed in, nodding. “We deserve a good laugh now and then, don’t we?”

I rolled out of bed and groped my way to the kitchen, fighting off the vertigo of a long life. People need sustenance before engaging in any meaningful way with a Peevish Universe.

Out the window, the ice-edged river flowed by while the coffee brewed. Petulant Voices started singing the national anthem. Dawn reversed itself as night rolled back in, and bombs bursting in air gave just enough light to locate the flag. A fierce Wind ripped it down and draped Old Glory across the backs of shivering calves being rounded up for slaughter. The Voices kept singing, “O’er the land of the free…”.

“Could you bring it down a notch?” I pleaded. This was not the kind of God any sane person would willingly deal with, but was there a choice?

“Of course and of course,” they declared. “There’s always a choice.”

An abrupt, unnerving calm settled as the Wind died down and the Voices faded into throngs of those silenced by extinction.

But it wasn’t over. “Don’t mind us,” they muttered. “We’ll just perch on this rock while you feed your face.”

I did not look up.

“We’ll just take a dip in the swimming hole while you guzzle beer.”

I rolled my eyes.

The Voices sighed in an elaborate show of patience. “We’ll just listen to a podcast while you get dressed.”

I shrugged, trying to keep my distance and hold myself together.

The Voices changed tactics and belted out a new song. A holiday favorite. “Do you hear what I hear?”

That did it. I gave up the pretense of sufficiency, looked into the dark eyes of death and bad choices, and said, “No. I do not hear what you hear. I do not see what you see. I do not know what you know. Would you mind leaving me alone now?”

“Not at all.” The Voices became the murmur of beating wings over untouched land, and finally, I could hear myself think.

“Come, let us reason together,” I said to what was left of myself.

“Oh, this ought to be good,” the Voices snickered. “Mind if we listen in?”

Holding Patterns


Greetings. It is Sunday morning, and just like 484 other Sundays, my Coauthor and I will be flinging a few words your way. Why? I don’t know. For my part, I just hope they land somewhere and offer someone food for thought, a surprised chuckle, a gentle cry, or balm for the soul.

My Coauthor, the one I speak freely for and about, is a persistent, nonexistent son of a bitch that befriended me when I wasn’t looking. We sit around a lot. We aim for 300 words every Monday, but we allow fewer if a poem is trying to appear. Then we edit all week. We often sob along the way. Then we post.

Recently, we tackled the publishing process again, yanking hundreds of these missives into a certain physicality. Why? I don’t know. The years and the losses pile up, no matter what. Sometimes, I get crazy sad. Murderously angry. I reek of despair. I break things. I chase the Coauthor around with a hammer, a paintbrush, a poem, shards of a broken mirror, or handfuls of angular sticks. We finally collapse into the absurdity. There is no escape. We are stuck with each other. The glue we currently favor is E6000. But there are options.

This is Solstice. This is the balancing point. I will wear black with yellow boots. I will post these words to myself, to you, to a Universe so full and majestic I consider surrendering.

The Coauthor says, “No, you don’t. And that’s why I love you.” And I say “Bosh.”

Here's this week's group of words. Sent along with as much love as I can muster right now.

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Holding Patterns

Silence and Emptiness
are so potent
they don’t often exist.

To realize your full potential
you must interact
in a friendly manner
with these nothings
because like wild dogs
they sense fear.

If you turn your back
they will attack
and you will stumble
over the edge.

When you gaze into the low unknown,
square your shoulders
lift your eyes
and raise your arms
in surrender.

When the Wind dies,
you will wonder
if there is anything left

but the Deep Blue understands.
It says Be still.
I will hold you.


II
It’s easy to hate.

The seductive lies
of ignorance and fear
have led to many
crucifixions.

Far less easy to offer
one bruised cheek
two warm hands
or a place to rest.

III

Find each other
while you can
and do not wait
to speak of love.

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Thank you!!!

Rita

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Dysfunction at the Pearly Gates

Due to recent excessive flooding, the gates of heaven have rusted open. Many are desperately trying to push them shut, but those damn gates won’t budge. I’ve heard that the administration plans to soak them in petroleum until the hinges loosen up and the wrong sort can be excluded again.

But for now, carcasses are rolling in unjudged and unimpeded except for the extra stars being glued to the crowns of those who were murdered, tortured, raped, or starved to death. These bodies often come in so emaciated or mutilated that they can’t be identified. Luckily, the Coauthor has published at least one story with every last one of them. These improbable tales of love, loss, and triumph provide guidance for the transformation of their bones. Even the shortest of stories, even the lowliest of lives.

The corpses of the blithely blessed, the perpetrators, monsters, and the enormously greedy are arriving too, but they’re receiving only standard allocations of stars. And no wings. Rumor has it that they’re trying to produce their own private stars and are threatening steep tariffs on feathers and halos.

“Don’t worry,” the Coauthor tells me. “Soon enough, it won’t matter. They’re making fake stars from rare earth elements and unfortunately, your planet is already on life support from all that extraction. All those wars. It won’t be long now.”

“Oh, God!” I exclaim. “Can’t you chip through the rust and slam those gates shut?”

My Coauthor looks at me with sad eyes. “Et tu, Brute?”

“What do you mean?” I demand, but I know exactly what she means, and I hate it. Liars and con men are trashing this beautiful earth. I don’t want justice, I want revenge. People I love have been treated unfairly. I don’t want mercy. I want revenge.

Revenge grows aggressively in the dark waters of the wounded, indignant heart. If you hurt me, I’ll hurt you. If you survive, you’ll hurt me worse, and so it goes, even unto death. One of us will go to hell. And then the other. It’s possible to break the cycle, but forgiveness is something most of us find difficult if not intolerable.

“Ah, maybe leave those gates open,” I mumble. “Afterall, we’re only human.”  

The Coauthor turns her palms up in a gesture of helplessness.

“So true,” she says. “But in this iteration, you’re all I’ve got. And that just kills me. Any chance you could put on your Big Girl pants?”

“I don’t remember how.”

The Coauthor looks at me skeptically. “One leg at a time,” she says. “And hold someone’s hand if you need to. Balance is important.”

Do-over Day

                     Do-over Day
(for my exhausted compatriots)

Things happen when the truth gets too close to the surface.
People grow more defensive. For instance, last night
the neighbors lit so many candles
against the coming storm
that their house burned
to the ground.

Do-over day.

Some of the children have chosen to fly too close
to the sun, and their tender wings are undone,
dripping wax down their arms, but maybe
it’s worth it for that kind of light,
that kind of spectacle,
that kind of end.

Do-over day.

Behold! That which is old has birthed something new,
And that which was new has now grown old.
If you hold love too close to your heart
it will explode from all that pressure.
Let it go. It will grow or perish
all on its own.

Do-over day.

You know this by the smell of ground coffee
and offerings burnt to perfection, and syrup
sweet and sticky, the pitcher too close
to the edge. If it falls, it will shatter,
and you will be tempted to say
I told you so.

Do-over day.

This is the time to go back to bed, cover your head,
and resolve to kick the bejesus out of anyone
who tries to get too close while you regroup
in the primordial soup where you began.
You speak softly to your bent reflection
but she’s asleep.

Let her rest.